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I Just Gotta Show Up

This is a screen shot of reviejanes insta. She's like 20 something, owns a gym and posts videos all the time. I've watched her achieve the goals she's set out to master in the gym, like rope climbs, and...well...just look at the pic.  Right??  www.reviejane.com.  Oh, and she's Australian. I know my body will look different cause we don't have the same DNA, but her body is motivating to me. That would be kickass!!  Will be!! 

This pic was posted by Dr. Agocs. It reminds me of the mental checkout I get when I exercise. I'm so hyperfocused on how my body is moving that everything else in my mind is quiet.  I'm also reminded about a quote my coach Scott told me when my friend passed a little over a year ago now. He quoted Henry Rollins, "200 pounds is always 200 pounds."  I can count on the bar. 

This is a screenshot of Dr. Israetel's facebook. He posted this around the time I started trying to convince myself to skip workout number three this past week.  He presented at CrossFit I-35 in January and he posts this furring my first week of trying. One thing at a time. This is all I have to do right now. And that's okay. 

I did it. I went four times. I felt everyone's encouragement everywhere I went. It felt good and helped me get my ass out of bed. So thanks. :)

Two days rest and back at it next week. As my wise sister-in-law encouraged me, and now you start over!!  Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, Friday or Saturday depending on weekend work schedule. 

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  1. When I say "furring," I really mean "during."

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  2. This is exactly why I'm addicted to yoga. It quiets my mind. It has nothing to do with how I look. I continue a daily practice because it shuts up my crazy mind!

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