I recently got my 4 year tag from CrossFit I-35. I've been a member for 4 years and weigh 40 pounds less than when I started. Most, if not all, of that was baby weight as I began shortly after I had delivered my son. I've lost the same 10-15 pounds since the initial loss and I had an interesting thought about that tonight. What if I'm afraid of fit healthy crossfitter Meredith?? See, I take progress photos. I've seen the awesome gains I make and then I FREAK. And avoid the gym for days, weeks, months. It's like I see how hot I could be and I start eating. As I'm eating I'm fantasizing about seeing my muscles and wearing jeans and a bikini. Longing for comfort in my own skin. Yet the moment I start to get a glimpse towards that, I go backwards. What is up with that?? Afraid of my own success?
My random thoughts as I do this thing called LIFE.