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Fat Camp

I had the pleasure of enjoying conversation over lunch with my sweet friend Christina recently.  We workout together at CrossFit I-35 and hadn't seen each other in quite some time.  I instantly felt comfy cozy when we sat down together and we got right into conversation like minimal time had passed.  Like Krista, I feel comfortable being candid with Christina so our conversation naturally turned toward exercise and diet.

That lead to me talking about my blog and I likened it to what I imagine fat camp would be like.  Lots of thinking, introspection and coming to grips with my why.  Requiring a post of myself every so often has really forced me to keep my weight loss journey on the fore front.  And figure out the function of my behaviors.  (Yes, I just said function of my behaviors.)  It's like I'm constantly at fat camp.  (Anyone that has gone and is reading this, props to you, it's been mentally exhausting for me!)  Here's what's been on my mind lately.


  • I've kinda been overwhelmed lately about changing forever.  But I thought of a solution: change my attitude.  I'm happy to be drinking white wine instead of beer.  I'm happy to not clear my plate because the food didn't win.  I'm excited to workout.  These are the "fake it "til I make it " statements I'm currently telling myself.
  • I'm so used to "challenging" myself for 30 days, 90 days, for today, that I've never taken the time to wrap my brain around "lifestyle."  Forever.  Kinda makes me sad.  But then I think balance.  It's about being mindful to the things that go into my mouth and enjoying  life through monitored choices.  I'm slowly gaining control. 
  • Mindfully relentless


I'd recommend checking out mshelllll on Instagram.  My sister in law told me about her.  She's the one that got me thinking about my attitude.


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  1. UnknownAugust 24, 2014 at 5:07 PM

    Love the post and visual Mer! I am so proud of you. I following you sister. XOXO

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  2. UnknownAugust 24, 2014 at 5:08 PM

    I AM following you!

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